Heavily Sinking
My heart is getting heavy. Why don’t you see it? I feel like a third wheel. My tears are streaming. Is there a wall between us? Bricks of concrete that only I can see? I keep ramming into it! I have bruises from smacking into it. I want it to be like on the movies I put my hand against the glass and you put your against mine… but you can’t see me. Black and Crimson has consumed you beyond any return. Am I joining you? Is something wrong with me? Do I want to join you? I don’t want you to be alone. I reach out and offer you a helping hand… shoulder… love… and yet… you don’t take it as if you would die before grabbing ahold of help. I’m trying. I’m reaching. Straining. Bleeding. I really just want you to stick around. Be my pillar of sanity that I build my lifr around. I give you your space… but I need you to be with me. Not that way but around me. Your laughter makes my grey go away and your smile makes my heart skip a beat. To know that your happy makes my day amazing. But now that your spiralling into the Black and Crimson. Yes… I’m losing you. And we both know it.
