Knight.
I walk into a room and there you are. Hello There.
My heart is pounding knowing how wrong it is to know you. You sit there as if waiting for me. You wait for me to realize how much I am in dire need of you. You wait for me to realize how much you really are apart of me. You’ve been gone a long time.
You stand and my breath is taken away. I turn to run. Turn to not get caught up again. I feel you before I know you’re really there. You grab my hand and make me turn toward you. My heart is pounding in my ears. Blood rushing through my throat. My body vibrating with nervousness. Don’t go.
With those words, my body gives up. My knees go out from under me. Our bodies become one just like they have plenty of times before. So wrong! But at this point ecstasy has taken over. I’m intoxicated in your presense. You can’t help but to want me.
That you are right. I feel you through my walls, haunting my nightmares, filling my body. My stomach flips as your hands find that one spot. My weak spot. The one thing that no matter how much I try to shield, no matter how much I love it, no matter how much I care for it, if you touched I feel everything fall apart. I feel your breath against the side of my head as you whisper into my ear. You aren’t needed. You’re no longer wanted. You waste your breath. Why do you torment yourself like this? I can help you. Let me be with you. Let me have you.
My blood races for you. My body trembles for you. You pull away from me and we make eye contact for the first time. Your smile makes me scared. You like me driving you crazy. The way you can’t keep me off your mind. Let me have you, Please.
A thought struck me. I turn my head, rotating my neck to see if anyone is watching. I couldn’t have anyone see. I can’t have anyone see. I can’t afford them to know. Don’t be scared. Relax. Everything will be okay.
My fingers extend from their closed fists on your chest. I feel nothing under my hands. My heart stops at the realization that yours isn’t beating as fast as mine. It scares me even more so, because I feel no heart at all. The two of us. Me and you. Forever and ever.
You grab my hands by my wrists with one hand, with your other hand you make me look at you. Your eyes make me freeze. Let there be an us. Don’t listen to anyone else. Don’t listen to all of them. They are nothing but audience. They don’t know anything.
We wait for moments in nothing but lust. My hands shake in yours. I move mine in a way that I touch you. That one touch made me realize how much I really did want you. I wanted you to be with me. I wanted to just block them all out and let you have your way. I win.
Yes. You win. Hands slide up to pull you down to me. My heart leaps into throat as we touch. I realize what I have done and want to come back but your hands lock me in an embrace I can’t get out of. I feel your poison traveling through my lips into my body. My body finds itself in a position it can’t get out of. I push trying to get out. I can’t. Trapped. You finally let me go. A smile on your face makes me shudder. Gotcha. Your mine.
I finally get away. My hands on my lips. They were the least of my problems. Your poison filled me. I was infected. I felt it make its way to my heart. You made your way to my heart. You laugh. It made my body shudder and weak. My heart pumping at panic speed, pumping the poison through my body. Tears make their way down my cheeks. I was doom. I lost all control of my body, falling off my feet. I myself immobile and slowly falling into your arms again. You pull me up to you again. Your breath is hot and seductive on my face as the space between us gets smaller. I will forever be with you. No matter how hard you try, I will always be here. Following you. Stalking you. Constantly being in the back of your mind. You will never, ever forget me. Don’t you ever forget that.
