Llama Llama Moose.
For some strange reason, I’ve been happy lately. Like… I find myself smiling more often, blocking out that cloggy depressed feeling that has haunted me since late July.
1. I think… Now… I’ve finally come to terms with Sharon. I can hang around them and once more feel complete. Although I have yet to get “the talk”… which would require a certain level of chivalry to come out and play… For now… I feel as though I don’t need it. I say this now… && hell will break loose… DAMMIT!
2. I’ve found someone that is in the EXACT same position as I am, in relationship. He cares for someone immensely, but knows he can never have her. People have been curious why I’ve chosen to tell him stuff. But… I do it because I have grown to love said character, and I think half of me thinks hes grown to love me too. And because of our similarities, we are brought closer.
=]
3. Although all the happiness and jollygood dancing have been accuring, I find myself blocking out more stuff. All the little things like, Nina’s little meltdowns about Ama, Womb’s kick in the shin, Kid bouncing around like hes on steriods… I seem to forget it all. I found myself pushing all my pissed off-y-ness, into weight lifting. All the times I’ve wanted to pounce Kid && claw his eyes out for existing; All those times I’ve wanted to slam Nina against a wall for Mindfucking me… I push into weight lifting. First period is too short… I wish it were longer….
4. I saw Byrd. [10-16-08]. Its been 3 years since I saw him last. I was a freshman when he left… like a jerk. && I saw him for the first time. It was unbelieveable. Although I didn’t cry, I got enough of him. Enough to wait until his godson/daughter is done to see him again. I blame him for all those missing years. *Winks.* =]
