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Yeah. Graduation!!! =D. Yay. Now for another long post. =]. You know you like it. =P.

All week we [[the seniors of course]] had been practicing walking for graduation. And today we finally put it to good use. =].

In the morning, I was woken up by my middle sister, who was on the phone with my step sister.
“Call your friends to see if they have extra tickets.” WTF?! I was instantly pissed off. Because 1. I was woken up for a shitty question. And 2. Grrrrr. I just was. Because, we only get 8 tickets and mine were already taken.
1. Mom.// 2. Stepdad.// 3. Dad.// 4. Oldest Sister.// 5. Brother-in-Law.// 6. Middle Sister.// 7. Baby Sister.// 8. Cousin.
And suddenly my stepsisters want to come. I was so pissed off because, let’s face it, it knocked off my mojo.
“They don’t have any. Everyone wants extra tickets.” I growled.
I couldn’t go back to sleep because my heart was pounding from being pissed, so I got up and checked the phone and Blake called. INSTANT HAPPINESS! =D
“Bruh! Wanna go get a P’Zone wich me?” God! I love her.
I hesistated because my sisters and brother were in and I didn’t want them to feel abandoned. So I asked “Would be cool if I ran away for an hour?”
“That’s fine.”
“Oh. I thought you were still sleeping.”
Both which meant yeah, so I told Blake yes. I got dressed and then she came over.
Being that she bought the outfit, she wanted to see the Cap&&Gown on me, er… in general. And we recently discovered that she’s three inches shorter then me. [[WHO KNEW?!]] So the “gown” came shorter then it should have and of course… fucking bridget… I looked like a fucking cow with my fucking hips. The gown was not so loose on my fucking-hips as it was supposed to be. But that’s my fault because 1. I’m a cow. && 2. She’s shorter and its her’s. && 3. I was too scared to ask my parents for cap&&gown money. Yeah I know I shouldn’t have been scared to ask. Shut up. But it all worked out. Because Blake no longer goes to school and has no use for it. So I wore it instead.
So when I was done calling myself a “fucking cow” we went to Pizza Hut where we met up with one of Blake’s lovers…. well… Wishful-wannabe-lovers. He likes her but he doesn’t have a chance. He was okay. Shy, like all the rest of them, he didn’t talk because I was there. Maybe because he’s a jew. =P. [[Not really.]] But, we got P’Zones and we went to the park to eat them. Sitting on the ground and stoooff. She mostly paid attention to me because she didn’t like the kid and loves me. =DD. It was just the two/three of us, until!! I get a text frrrrooooommmm… *drumroll*…. Jasmine, My “hubby”. =]
TWIST!! Blake actually has a thing for Jasmine’s brothuh. And She/we are super worried that it’ll be awkward if the thing with Jasmine’s brother works out and Jasmine doesn’t like it, which to me, shouldn’t be because she doesn’t care who her brother dates, but theres always that paranoia.
After we finished our P’Zones, we sat and talked to the guy for a bit, who obviously liked her. Sucks to be him!!! HAHAHAHAHA!… I mean… >.>… Awh. We went back home after a while, then she left to go home for a bit. But meanwhile, Jasmine came over. =].
The point of Jasmine coming over was to discuss her brother with Blake, buuuuuuutttt… Blake left before she got there and returned after she left. Her excuse “got caught up on something”… not a clue what that means… I asked if her I wanted to know and she said no, so I let my imagination at work. While Jasmine was over I redid her nails and looked over a trash mag that I practically knew everyone in. [[THERE WAS A PICTURE OF HUGH JACKMAN! =DDDD]]
She left and I started to straighten my hair, since the time was 3 and I needed to be at the school by 4. Blake came in and I finished and straightened hers too. After we finished I put my gown and cap on and all the bling that went with it and left, running a couple minutes behind.
I got to the school and I was perfect timing, everyone was already there. So I lingered with my group, feeling whole like I always do. It was weird to see Nina though. Not seeing her everyday… it was weird. But I felt good when I saw her, even though she teased me in the mean way she does. =]. Serenity was quiet. Everyone else was off else where. But I was with Nina and Serenity. =D.
We finally lined up for graduation and I was happy. I stood two people behind Jasmine, with a football player between us, but he didn’t stop us from chatting away. Although… I can’t help but to find him a bit… nvm… I don’t want to get yelled at for my bad taste even more so then I already do. XP. We got in there exactly how they rehearsed and we waited two hours for the ceremony. So many people cried, and I almost did too, especially during a song that was being performed during it from a redneck on a guitar. The lump reallllyyy hurt, but I didn’t. But everyone else was. But I stood strong… ish. =]. A couple of the girls that gave speeches broke before they even spoke their first words. I finally got my diploma. Thank effing god! Graduted with honors. =].
Ended up going:
1. Mama// 2. Stepdad.// 3. Oldest sister.// 4. Middle sister.// 5. Stepsister.// 6. Dad.
And thats it. So… I had 2 unused tickets… I kinda felt like shit because someone could have used them… but whatever.
After we went outside and threw our hats, I was in instant search for my family. My feet were kiiillliiinnnggg me. I caught Jack first. I ran to him and practically glomped him. I was just about to warn him of my Mom’s camera before… she showed up and snapped one. =]
Then I found Serenity and took one. =]
Jasmine.
Then Nina.
Then my family decided they were hungry and wanted to go to Beef o’Brady’s in the next town. We went home to pick up my Brother-in-law and my younger sisters and my phone… where I had a voicemail from a friend wishing me a happy graduation, saying that I should have stayed at the school a little more… but… I felt bad cause I didn’t. But I might hang out with them later. Maybe. =]
So we get to Beef’s and SMOOCH IS THERE!… I attack him naturally. =]. I hung out by his table and talked to his mom and family, then went back to mine and stuff.
We were eating when my middle sister was like “The Smooch family is leaving” I turn around and they’re all coming toward me. I hug his mom and his sister. I see him walking away and I reach to grab his shirt and drag him back to me. I put my head into his chest.
“I love you. Do you love me?”
“Yes.” =D
I let him go and I watched him walk away. I fear that itll be the last time I see him for a while. My Smooch. =[
I finish my dinner, we take a couple more pictures [[Mom, Stepdad, 5 sisters, Brother-in-law, and myself.]] and leave after deciding that we are going to get alcohol and go to G-ma’s to watch some sort of basketball? game?

The night went well. =]
Espeically after Orange Juice and… Heeee. =]. Just one glass. =P