Another Perfect.
“My telly died im sorry. Im really out of it. Lol. Like i canT stand straight. Lol. But all I gotta sayy is i am loyal to who i care for. i support you in anything you do to make your life to your satifcation. I wouldn’t want it otherwise. You mean a lot to me. More then anyone. But im not willing to wait for you. It wont take much convincing no. But i will try my hardest to decline because you are so bad for me. You are bad because I care so much more for you then you do me. Like meet joe black said “seach 1000 years and you still wont get a glance of it” or something along that line. I’m tirred of this unrequited shit and its not fair. No matter how much you push me away i will care. It sucks i know. Just think about how pathetic i feel. Craving and pining over an ex. Its horrible. But i dont regret anything. Neither should you. Good night.”
I Wrote This In A Drunken Stupor. Word For Word. Left As Is. Man I Spell Pretty Good For A Drunk Person. And Look At My Big Words. Fantastic! Lol.
I Had Just Finished Getting Drunk By My Karaoke Buddies Who Generously Bought Me Booze At Karaoke. VeeNice.
Drunken Words Are Sober Thoughts I Suppose.
It’s All True. Those That Can Vouch Are The Ones Who Have Been Keeping Track.
Using Me? Eh. I’m Using Him.
I Don’t Have Time For Shit Like Looking For A New Guy. I Am Focusing On Trying To Make Myself Happy. I Work All Time. Two Jobs. And Still Trying To Keep The Old Friends I Have. Dedicating One Day A Week To Seeing My Folks. It’s Hard. I Can’t Seem To Find Enough Energy In My Spare Time To Go Out With My Friends, Or Stay Up With My Roommates.
Plus They Say Love Is Better If You Don’t Go Looking For It.
The Sex?
Well, It’s Nice. It’s Clean. It’s Fun. And It Feels Damn Good.
It’s Not About Trying To Plant A Seed For A Relationship. [Hehe, I'm Funny.]
It’s About Just Getting Off.
I Know He’s Clean And He Does The Job.
It’s Better Then Taking Chances With Some Horrible Dirty Guy From A One Night Stand Just To Get My Fix.
Plus, For Some Reason, I Trust Him.
Not In An Emotional Sense. OH HELL NO! Lol
But In A Business-Like Sense.
“You Do Your Job, I’ll Do Mine. Don’t Get In My Way, I Won’t Get In Your’s.”
So It Works Out For Me.
It’s Not Like He Reads These Anyways…
But Dood, I’m Sorry If That Simple Txt Freaks Him Out.
Get Used To It.
I Know My Feelings. I Know What I’m Doing.
I’ve Got Control. Complete And Total Control.
Except Where You Put The Hickeys… You Asshole. Lol
I Think Sometimes, He Trolls Me.
Saying Shit Like “I’m Having Withdrawls” [Which Has Been Said Once In... 10 Months.]
Knowing Goddamn Well That That'll Make My Stomach Turn.
I Honestly Don’t Know How Many More Of These Blogs About Him There Will Be. I’m Just Sort Of Ranting About The Same Guy… But That’s What Blogs Are For.
I’m Not Going To Get All Romantic On Him. I Deserve More Respect Then That. If He Wants Something Like That Again, Then He’s Going To Have To Get Away From Me.
So I Guess That’s Why I Don’t Want To Try Again. I Don’t Want Him To Have Feelings For Me Again.
Because It’ll Come With A Price. The Price Of:
Either Stay And Be Friends. Or
Go Away And There Will Another Chance In A Long Time.
Maybe He Could Change My Mind.
Maybe He Can’t.
I Love Him.
He Needs To Either Man Up Or Shut Up.
These Are The Facts I Know.
[Like Reading The Back Of Twilight A Bit. -Shudders-]
All I ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
All I ever wanted
Was to make you mine
I know that I love you
Oh baby, why don’t you see?
That all I ever wanted
Was you and me
Now, give me a B
I’m so alone, here on my own
And I’m waiting for you to come
I want to be a part of you
Think of all the things we could do
And everyday you’re in my head
I want to have you in my bed
You are the world, you win my eyes
For you’re all I want in my life
All I ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
All I ever wanted
Was to make you mine
I know that I love you
Oh baby, why don’t you see?
That all I ever wanted
Was you and me
– All I Ever Wanted – Basshunter
