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Everything started monday. I was having a rough day. It was monday for christ’s sake. Now… I don’t remember what my malfunction was. But… I was having a not so amazing day. Forth period came around and my friend September came around to my desk. It wasn’t normal that she came around. She was my good friend. We have homeroom together, since 10th grade, whenever I first came to this hell hole. We’ve only hung out once, and Jack was there. >.>… whore… But! She looked at me with her eyes wide and puppy. I knew she was going to ask something. I just knew it.
“Do you like 21 year old Italians?”
“What!?” Reflex made me want Serenity. Nina was sitting right beside me, her ears all perky and listening. I averted my want to Nina since Serenity wasn’t avalible.
“I know someone that you might make a good match with. His name is [Name.]” – I’ll come up with a name for him later.
“What!?!?!?” I repeated. I thought about the past 6 months and the wasted time I had spent on Jack. But then… I thought hard about the question.
“What? I can’t hook up with him? What? Am I not good enough? Is [4th period girlfriend of ours] not good enough for him?” Nina went on. I know she was kidding. But putting September out on the line like that was just wrong.
I mean… I was 18. It was all legal. I was single. Maybe I should actually give this kid a chance. And even if we didn’t work out… I could always be friends with him.
“Uh…” trying to get through to September through Nina. “I’ll think about it.”
“Okay!” September was a peppy person. She was like a whole cheerleading squad of her own. Full of drama, yes. But… She was peppy. Like a cheerlead… yeah.
I went home that night… I lied. I didn’t really think about it. I was distracted by my bad day. We was caught for last weekend. [Do I Smell Orgys? My Last Blog.] && My cousin is getting emancipated. T.T It was just too much. I wanted to punch something. Serenity was upset with me because I didn’t take an oppertunity to see her && Damien bitched at me. && Then this. I was so upset and I couldn’t cry. I got the texts during band practice and I refuse to let this people have the satification of seeing me cry.
I went home and got online. September was on messenger.
“So… what do you think?”
I thought about it for a few extra minutes… “Okay. I’ll give it a try.”
“Oh good! He asked you what you were like and I told him.”
“What?!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!” [I think I put that many... maybe more.] “What did he ask.”
She told me a couple things about me to him, him to me, and us…
I found him through her myspace and added him. “Hi I’m September’s friend” was the little saying thing. He added me. && I looked at him pictures. He looked far older than 21. But even she said he was 21. T.T
“I’m shy.”
“So is he. He like a puppy. And you’re like a puppy. Ya’ll can be puppies together.”
Wow. It was cheesy. It really was. Sometimes I wonder what is running through her mind. >.>…. I wanted to hit her for making that connection.
But… I had agreed. && he seemed interesting.

The next day, Nina [whom I was talking to on messenger along side Septemer], announced it to Serenity… who didn’t believe it. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her along to tell her what I have told her. But I didn’t want Damien to be there && everyone else. Forgive me for wanting to tell her something that I didn’t want out in the open, not yet at least. I wanted my best friend to be the first to know. Not everyone else. But… going into homeroom September announces it to Blake && our other homeroom girl, we’ll call her Abby. Abby was all happy. She asked questions that September and I answered.
Blake looked up from the book she was reading and asked, “How old is he?”
“21.”
“No.”
“O.o” – me.
She didn’t see it cause she was back to reading her book. I wondered what her problem was. I didn’t ask. She wasn’t at school the previous day. Im sure since she wasn’t at school, it was within reason why she wouldn’t have been there. She didn’t try to miss school. At least I don’t think so. But man did I worry.
She told me a little more about him. Most of the stuff that I saw on his myspace.
We had agreed that after work, Hungry Howie’s… at the time… that I would go out with her, her bf, and…. [Name.]
I told mom about it when she got home from her work trip. She was all “Neeaahh” – she didn’t exactly say yes, nor said no.

Wednesday.
I told Rebecca about him. I was nervous as fuck. I was nervous on monday that I was shaking while I was agreeing. But Friday was coming closer. Oh god!
“You want to give him ur number so ya’ll can talk?”
“Yeah.” It was one of the issues that mom had brought up. ‘What if he was a freak? Are you still going to go out with him?‘ Mom ruins everything.
I wrote down my number for her.
That night I got a text… of course.
We just got to know each other that night. We asked a couple questions. && we started to talk on myspace too.
Yes. We were talking through text and myspace at the same time. Gasp. While we were having text convos, we were having myspace convos. @.@. Not that big of a deal.

Thursday came… we did it again… although text were being farther apart and he wasn’t on myspace. I guess I’m a nerd for getting on it every day/night. But I also HATE living in the only part of the fucking world that doesnt have fucking service. God! [Although his phone died... >.>]

Friday. The day that this whole blog has lead up to. I went to school. Everyone was all asking questions, making me more nervous. September got slapped for singing “Rae and [Name] sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N” *punch!*… Jesus! U don’t do that! You just dont! Ugh! I packed my bag with sleep clothes, today’s clothes, && work clothes. Planning to spend the night at her house after the whole shindig. I went to work. It was busy one minute, the next it wasn’t. I was released. I texted him that I was heading out. && Started my night.